Why do fools fall in love?

I've been trying to figure out how one goes about joining a "dating scene" when your religion is a huge part of who you are and what you want to have in your life.  Let's be honest - there are very few, if any, single LDS men in the surrounding area.  So does that mean online dating is all we have?  I've tried that off and on since July.  Thought I had met someone special which turned into a confusing limbo.  Now the idea of jumping back into that seems futile.  What is so hard about being honest with what you want out of life?  What is wrong with being open and real?  I've been trying to determine if it is just me and I don't have anything to offer men.  Is it my big and beautiful build?  Should I starve myself to compete with the plentiful thin and single Molly Mormons?  Do I lack a sense of humor?  Am I a boring conversationalist?  Maybe I just don't have what anyone wants and that is why I couldn't keep my husband in love with me.  These thoughts swirl and muddy my brain, mostly at night when the kids are in bed and I am laying in bed trying to turn my mind off.  Well if I just looked like "her" then someone might like me.  If I act "this way" maybe he'll like me.  When you feel like you have been yourself with those you have fallen for and they have rejected you time after time - what is a person supposed to think?  And single men could go for a woman who is way younger then them but if it were the other way around "it just isn't normal".  I've had one gentleman tell me he won't even consider a woman with children.  Well if you are 36 and never been married - should I not consider you?  Why must there be silly restrictions on who we can and can't fall in love with?  Would you pass up Mr. Right just because he had been married before or had kids or belly danced at a luau?  Ok that last one was a bit ridiculous but I feel like most restrictions are ridiculous.  Is it too scary for a man to think he might have to become a father figure to my children?  I don't know.  The questions are endless and there really are no good answers.  I guess I am just trying to figure out why things are the way they are.  I know the Lord does have a plan for me but I have to be an active part of that plan and try to reach the important righteous goals.  I had a great conversation with my cousin-in-law today about this sort of thing.  We can put things in God's hands, but if we sit on our couch Facebooking and Pinteresting (not words, I know) expecting him to drop it in our lap, isn't that missing the point?  We need to do our part to make things happen as well.  So for now I am going to pull my big girl panties up again and say it isn't me, it's "him".  I may have just been the best thing that you passed up.  Onward and upwards as the saying goes.  This fool so hope she falls in love again someday and that the fool she falls in love with has been waiting his whole life for a girl like her.